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Physically, mentally, spiritually. 


Dead. 




When you've lost your ability to pray. When everyone around you is praising in tongue, crying out in the same spirit of togetherness, when everyone is bound together in prayer.... and you're left there by yourself. Because your heart is hardened, cold, not of the Holy Spirit. And all I can do is stand by and watch. 


God said 'let the weak say he is strong.. in Me, through Me.' 
There is no way I am strong. I am the weakest person I know. There is no strength in me. I am of no worth. I keep hearing people say, "God has a plan for you! A purpose for you! There's a reason! He's going to use you! Nobody is useless!" 
Me? Bullshit. The only reason God is probably gonna use me is as an example to other young Christians what NOT to become, what NOT to descend to, how NOT to be weak. Excuse the self-pity here. 


There is no strength in such a person like me. Remember that.