French Open

ALL ABOUT ROLAND GARROS.

Yep, its the time of the year again ppl.


Because the look on Verdasco's rather stoned face says it all. XD

Heh.
Anywho;

Who doesnt love the icing on the claycourt season?

Even if sucky rain messed up most of yesterday's schedule and i had to sit and endure repeats of women's matches played the day before. Except i didnt because i was too tired and slept early and was dead to the world for nearly 12 hours.

Yes, i WAS that tired. Bloody bio and physics took so much toll on me i sacrificed my sanity just for that two and a half hours. In 48 hours i only had like, six hours of sleep? D:


I will get back to those days of torture once exam is over for good(though not for long, augh). For now, peace comes falling slowly as i am able to watch tennis again! Ole, French Open! :D


But during the first two days of tennis-watching, i uncovered a horrible truth behind the players' scene....



One word : F-R-E-A-K-Y.

Moral of the story : Always consult with your fashion designer about coincidences involving clothing color with another player of the opposite sex as to not turn out looking like you made a pact with him/her.

Or maybe it really was a pact. :O

And Feds stayed truly blue to his bluesy favourite blue...

Yes, he did ballet when he was younger. Wanted to touch it up now even though he's on the job.

And in tennis, you have to learn to mingle. I mean, off the competitive scene, imagine all the fun they could have..


Err.. not that kind of fun.

But this kind!

Feds : See you in the final, mate?
Nole : Err, we have to discuss that with Rafa..
Feds : Yeah? Where is he?
Nole : Dont know. He muttered something in spanish and disappeared somewhere. He has got to stop doing that!


Rafa was just playing just now but then my dad wanted to watch a dvd. Since i knew my mum would heckle at me anyway for watching Nadal, i took the wise choice and for the first time watched a cantonese movie. AND, found it really good! :D :D

After that, i went and loaded the whole Ip Man movie( my dad lost the dvd, zzz) and watched the prequel of Ip Man 2. Damn, was it awesome. Made me actually wanna learn some kung fu for the first time. LOL.

Though i also had to make sure i had english subtitles, if not i would be at loss as to what was going on. Good thing the dvd had english subs( albeit really really bad grammar) and being able to grasp a vague sense of the dialogue was good enough for me. If not, half the time i would be treating my father as a translator. Lol, and so would my mum. Heh.

Feedback : Jackie Chan, get lost!!

Tmr, its Prince of Persia for me. Yes, at long last. Unfortunately, I'm going to swoon over the guy that tarnished the reputations of men like Jet and Cord McCoy. Much regret in that, but since there's no tuition for once i shall spend my free Saturday on the run at the cinema.


Chemistry has already taken a back seat.

:S

You Remind Me

THIS IS HOW..

.. you remind me of what i really am.

Gina just told me that my coach asked her whether i made it to MSSM today at Lakeview.
I wanted to go today and tell him myself but my mum was tired and i decided it wouldnt be fair to exhaust her further.

I dread telling him the news tomorrow.
And the re-opening of another nightmare chapter in my life.

I dont know how he will react, but despite knowing he wont blame me i still feel i've let him down, let myself down, let my teammates down.
How much more heartache must i take? My mind has not strayed from my focus on exams, but after that what will old pains inflict me with? Wounds that will refuse to heal, or scars that will forever sting when disturbed.


I just feel so troubled and sore. I'm on the brink of throwing myself off a cliff. People say dont dwell on the past but i did try to forget it and it was ok for awhile. I try to not let it haunt me and take control of me when there's always the future. But some memories leave such a bitter taste the bitterness will forever be etched in my mind.


But then again, that's life. You know what? I've enough of me. Get the hell over it, and move on.

What does reminiscing old mistakes bring you anyway? Emo-ness and no confidence.
I'm tired of being so weak. Its happened, so be it.

I'll make better mistakes in the future.

Bad Dreams

BAD DREAMS


.. that come true.


Why, Fabregas, why?
It broke my heart when the news came that he wished to leave Arsenal for Barca. I mean, how demoralising is it when your own captain abandons the club? What impression does that leave on the rest of the young squad?


It still hurts seeing pictures and news of him all abuzz with him leaving for Barcelona. I wish now i wasnt so involved in football, but unfortunately i am and always will be for Arsenal. As corny as it sounds i nearly sobbed with anguish when reality just hit. i never expected him to leave.. but it is his career after all. How do i see him now decked out in a Barca outfit? When Henry left i didnt give a damn but Cesc?

On the other hand, i understand his frustration with the club not winning practically anything season after season. When you're split between loyalty to a continuously weakening club and a golden career chance, a footballer doesnt have to think twice about what to do. Not when a huge club like Barcelona are at the peak of their form and sweeping all the titles in their path.


But it really really really breaks my heart to see him go. And i cannot fathom how Arsenal will deal now without their captain and best midfielder. I can no longer see his pics without horrible scribbles of old scars reopening. I cannot bear to see the old photos of him with his Captain armband and think of where he is now.

Sorry for the sickening sentimentality, but i still cant get off the shock of his decision. Damnit Wenger, GO AND SPEND SOME MONEY ON SOME BETTER PLAYERS. What on earth are you waiting for? For the current team to mature? And get Fabianski off the team! Get some longer-limbed goalie for all our sakes(though i like Almunia). For the first time i'm mad and upset at the same time over some football issue. Nadal not included. Funny, i never thought Fabregas had such an impact on me. Usually i'm all about tennis.

French Open is starting on Sunday, hopefully it will help take my mind off everything lately, from exams to Fabregas to my MSSM disappointment. Nothing soothes me better than to see Nadal victorious again.

~ Adios, Cesc Fabregas. ~

:( :(

Balls

IT'S ONE BALL OF A WORLD

Lets face it : Balls make the world go round. Heck, even our wonderfully round Earth is the shape of a ball. Thats how much influence balls have on us.

See, it even inspired the greatest game of all :


Who doesnt love football fever? :D

Okay, so i'm not much into football, not as much as my own brothers and father( if there was ever such thing as football cancer i think they might have it along with the billions of other men all over the world). But balls do involve themselves around everybody, yes, i mean EVERYBODY. Everyone has to encounter some kind of ball in their life, its irrevocably unavoidable..

Like :



or :



There's also another version of balls involving the men but i think i shall stop with the vulgarity on my blog right now.

Lol, even so, in this sports-mad world, nothing is spared : Baseball, Netball, softball, volleyball, basketball, squash, cricket.. just to name a few.

And to quote the very ego-provocating slang, "Have you no balls, man??"

And sometimes, our very ball-y worlds do collide.

I cannot tell you how gay this pic looks. Unfortunately for Ronaldo.

In relation to that, Ronaldo is actually a huge fan of Nadal and Feds. Yep, apparently he loves tennis( high five for him there!) and since Rafa was playing in the Madrid Masters he and a few of his Madrid teammates decided to drop by.


I'm sorry, I really really really couldnt help it. XD

Oh, and the dude with the question mark plastered on his face is Raul. Whoever he is, i'm sure football crazies would recognize him.

Speaking of tennis, i have finally watched my first complete Nadal match in months! :D :D :D
Yes, FINALLY. You have no idea how nice it is to see him play again, especially on clay.



I am becoming increasingly irresponsible being here blogging when exam is already on next week. But then again, my brain needs a break from all the addmaths its been through all afternoon.

Hopefully, i dont burnout before my science papers. :/

Adios ; ~

Time After Time

TIME AFTER TIME


I'm getting old. Like ooooooooooooooooooooooold. Like Jia says. I'm becoming an old old lady.
I'm getting way too many nieces and nephews in two years! :O


Meet my new little nephew. :)

I think his name is Xue Yang. Or was it Xiu Yang?
Either way, as long as i pronounce it right it doesnt really matter. Let the parents worry about the spelling lol.

Ah, generations pass so quickly. What oldies we all seem after what seemed like just a couple of years ago when we were hanging out at playgrounds and playing catch.


Except for the little squirt in the middle, we're all garnering for tomorrow as adulthood approaches.

Yep, time flies by so quickly. I look forward to attending my first wedding of whoever gets married first! :D :D

In the meantime,

Do you believe she's seven years old next year? O.O


Everyone thinks she's three. Heck, even i thought she was three. Sorry, i have too many cousins to keep track of their correct ages. But seriously, did you see me when i was six? I was literally double her size. Well, i should have been, considering i was double her age.

This is beginning to remind me too much of biology. I've been studying the hypothalamus and the endocrine system and now i just remembered about dwarfism and the lack of growth hormones secreted by the pituitary gland... augh. Ellysha just called me a freak that day after i recited the names of all the bones in our body. HAHA. Yes, bio freak i am. :D

Now i gotta go do my maths. -.-'

P.S. I managed to hunt down an ultra-clear video of Shakira's Gypsy that was downloadable with my realplayer( i couldnt find one on YouTube and all the clear ones were download-protected) and then transferred it to my iPod. :D :D :D :D

Finally, i can watch steamy Nadal anytime i want. Muhahaha. XD

Drained,

DRAINED


What do i do now?
Cry? Sulk? Ponder in regret?
Most people would just shrug and say "Move on".

Easier said than done.
When you want something so bad, you worked your butt of in hope of achieving something better, and it all ends with ashes at the bottom of the grave. I wanted this more than anyone else, i worked as best as i possibly could within all the limitations of transport problems and studies and a useless jackass taking up more than half your training hour.

I'm so sick and tired of always being a fucking disappointment to myself. Although this time its not my fault, you cant help feeling the tug of what could have happened if you'd just tried.

And now its gone to someone else. Someone else who i knew i could've beaten if i went.


Stupid? I agree. im annoyingly stupid to get distracted when exams are just around the corner. But nobody knows how much i wanted this. Nobody but myself.

Guess i'll see you in hell.

Imagination

IMAGINARY FRIENDS.

Spongebob says : "All you gotta have is imaaaaaaagination....",( dont forget the rainbows)

I should be revising my subjects now.
And i am, in fact. Well, indirectly. In a way. Sort of.

Its amazing how a simple everyday activity seemingly taken for granted as being what it is and always will be is suddenly looked at a different point of view. All thanks to science.

When you study too much physics and chemistry and bio, this is exactly what happens. You cant do a single thing without the music of science echoing behind you in your cerebrum inside that cranium joined together by those immovable joints called sutures....

.... see what i mean? You think of your brain, and your brain immediately thinks of the cerebrum, and after that comes the skull, then the cranium, then...okay forget it. Must forget bio for a bit. Although im not done studying yet.

I was having dinner just now and thinking how painful my teeth felt with the pressure on it and immediately the physics calculation popped into my head. After managing to rub it away, i was looking at the sauce on my bro's food and the equation glucose+glucose= maltose came out of nowhere and brought along its brothers and sisters, ie, carbs, proteins, fats, who in turn brought their other relatives called enzymes and co.

And while drinking my water out of a straw, atmospheric pressure decided to pay me a visit, as did thermal equilibrium, clashing at the same time the moment i saw my ice had melted.


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Nice job, Esther.
If only it were this easy during exams. Unfortunately, my scientific friends dont like visiting me during my papers. Apparently they're afraid it would disturb my concentration.


Science.
Augh.