Now Step Up that Heel

NOW STEP UP THOSE HEELS.

How incredible. Damien decides to enter me for 400m, 800m, AND 200m. Incredible.

And how am i supposed to garner enough energy when they are holding the finals all on the same day should i manage to qualify? What, with my obstructed eating rules? Damn these braces at times like these. The most i can do is drink milo and chew on bread( yes i can chew bread with my right back teeth. Front teeth are nevertheless still as sensitive as ever ) .

Reason why i'm not studying tonight is that i'm way to nervous. I cannot guarantee my 200m running because ( hel-o? ) i trained as a long-distanced runner, not a semi-sprinter. Oh well. 400m is first thing in the morning, and then the rest are in the afternoon...under sweltering sun.

And if i'm unlucky enough to be placed in the same saringan as shea wen and karen and aliah, then its goodbye for my qualification or medal. Sad isnt it. Not that i'm aiming to beat the bionic girl anyway..i always said if Steph cant beat her sister, what more me? XD


Lets see how it goes tmr. Wish me luck, y'all. :)

Kick Up that Heel

KICK UP THAT HEEL.

I let myself down today during my first run with braces dragging at my teeth. What i like to call a bad running day. And i hate these bad days when i suck on the road. Sheesh.


Usually its much more awesome to run outside rather than inside but prior to today's run i'd miss FOUR freaking days without running and THREE days with no steps and skipping. Ohh, the horror, the horror. D:

I think the last time i ran outside was abt a week ago.. if not more than that. Since then i ran inside thanks to the horrible evening weather and then came my unexpected braces on Thursday which i really had not expected. I just thought it was some check-up and then i'd get my braces the following appointment but then the doc said why dont u put them on right now? After all, it takes only 45 mins. And it wont hurt, says he.

Hahah. I'd say about 40% of that statement was a lie. They stretched my mouth so wide it was sore for awhile after that. Not to mention the disgusting salty substance they used..whatever that was for anyway. Ewwww.

And after that, no eating for six hours. And right after that, mum goes to buy karipap.
"WHY, Ma, WHY??"

Lol, ok so u get the picture of a first time with braces. As for my running, i sucked so bad i felt like stabbing myself. Either i have no glucose to boost my energy( been eating nothing but porridge and soya pudding for three days ) or my body has had too much rest and is getting lazy and unfit. Well, now that my teeth has stopped screaming blue murder its time to restore some routine and that includes my damned studies and my steps and obviously my running. I just wished i could eat more. Its miserable not being able to bite. Sobs.

I'm in a dilemma over my squash now that i've given up on that stupid running for sports day. This time, i have to chase my teacher around to get my forms in on time before the 31st. Seriously, why is it so hard when someone is interested? Ugh. Squash on Sat was terrible, but not quite as terrible as i'd thought it would be. Teeth was still on fire, but i insisted i went despite not being able to swim( what a horrible waste. The sun was super fine that day and i could have touched up my tan ). Played a game with coach and he was wondering at my inability to run like i used to. Sorry, coach. Even squash addicts have to sacrifice a few lessons for the sake of beauty.

The weekend has been rather wasted to say. I slept alot since Thursday's braces because the 1st and 2nd days were nothing but torture. The worst torture was eating, even the most watery porridge you'd see anywhere. Even the painkillers didnt do much helping. It hurt so bad i slept all the time and that meant no biology studying after all. Sorry, Locomotion and Movement.

Time to ciao now. Must at least pretend to do some studying before i die during the May exam. :S

Unfulfilled

UNFULFILLED.

Hooray, I broke my vow abt watching Nadal at Indian Wells.

How interesting. He loses to Ljubicic right after i vowed to catch his match. But then i couldnt find the timeslot and it was depressing learning abt his loss while on the internet. Shyte.

But then everyone else died-ed too. LOL. Djokovic, Feds, Roddick, Murray, etc, etc.
Speaking of Murray, you cant help but wonder at his wonderbody he displays now...

If i didnt dislike him so much, i would have been impressed. Lol i lied. I was actually knocked down by his transformation from this skinny pale little afro-haired boy with squinty eyes and a large lion's mane and.. wait i saw tht pic somewhere before.


Ahah! Success! 8D

Told you he was scrawny. Well his still pale and destined to remained that way just as Rob Pattinson will, but as least he got rid of that lions mane. But somehow or other everytime i see him i just keep thinking he needs more sun despite the fact thats the maximum tan his ever going to get.

Sigh. Thats why Nadal and his olive colored skin is in Shakira's video..
..ok i will stop abt the vid now. I think all my readers have fled from my blog..everyone except Steph, that is. Haha. But i do love tennis after all.

I'm tired of the sports day buzz. Im sick of having to chase them around to confirm my participation i think i mighnt run after all. With saringan starting on Tuesday, i dont believe i can run after all. I have enough of worrying and wondering that i'm just going to let it rest. Run or dont run, screw Kasturi!

Metal-mouthed

my teeth huuuurrttsss, my mouth huuurrrttss, everything HURTS.

And Shia, i really do hate apples. So you cant tempt hahah. Nice try though. XD

30 Days of April

30 DAYS OF APRIL.


12-15 April : MSSS Squash :O

25th April : MPSJ Run! :D

Somewhere amongst April : Sports Day D:


I'm scared stiff of all of them. Most of all sports day, knowing how many awesome runners there are in SU. And i havent even confirmed my participation yet!
@#$#%^&!!

Help.

Sinnetaddict no more?

SINNETADDICT NO MORE?

I fear i may be on the losing end with the tennis world. And that includes Nadal and Feds and all the rest of my favorite players. OH NO TENNIS COME BACK.

To lose touch with the joys of tennis would be like plunging into a darkness of depression for all time to come. No kidding.

I keep forgetting to watch the Indian Wells tournament. Either that or when its showing someone else is hogging the tv. Or when i do get the chance to watch(if i rmb, duh) they're showing some other match.


But most of all, though,

I MISS NADAL.

T___________________T

Blogging about him yesterday suddenly made me wish i could catch his matches. I had no idea till now how much i miss his matches after his absence since the Aussie Open. Since he lost he literally disappeared into thin air(okay not really. Lets not forget who's in Shakira's video ).

It would be heaven to see him run like that again.

I hereby vow to catch at least one of Nadal's matches before he wins(or loses) at Indian Wells. :)

Now lets see whether i can keep to that promise of mine. Nadal better be on tonight. :)

You Cannot be Serious

"YOU CANNOT BE SERIOUS..!!"

ONE :

CHAMPIONS' LEAGUE QUARTERFINAL :



ARSENAL VS. BARCELONA...? ! D:

You CANNOT be serious..


TWO:

NADAL...


YOU REALLY REALLY CANNOT BE SERIOUS.

SNAKESKIN PANTS DO NOT DOUBLE AS TENNIS SHORTS.
May we return to the pajama pants? Please?


" You cannot be serious! "

See, even John McEnroe agrees with me. Or maybe i'm just stealing his line. Hoho.

The good news is, Nadal is back to his winning form(yes i love you Nadal) and those pants arent really snakeskin pants. LOL. Although i think his inner fashionista may have gone overboard with that outrageous pattern.

The bad news is, Arsenal is dead. Dead dead dead dead dead. Like dead dead. Nvm, IN WENGER WE TRUST. (And Fabregas, Diaby, Bendtner, Almunia, Arshavin,...)
And old Feds died as well at Indian Wells. Hah, how poetic.

..and old Feds died as well,
Playing Baghdatis at Indian Wells.

I havent come up with the first two lines yet. LOL.

P.S. I know my blog's dead. Sometimes i wonder whether anyone actually reads it. Why i bother to update is beyond my imagination.

Reprise.

REPRISE.

I think we have enough of emo posts. I'm ill of them myself.

After all, i realized that the more i keep bothering myself about it, the more harm im doing to myself.
Might as well just let go and keep going and be numb to everyone around me.

Yesterday, i was THIS close to posting some really vulgar/X-rated/foul-language-d post out of my anger and rage but i managed to calm down and told myself that there wasnt any benefit in keeping my hatred inside me and that whatever she said was of her opinion, its not true because i know that im not what she says i am. What more sharing my rage out loud? People read it, think whats this girl's problem(LOL), shrug and click on the next blog thinking what kind of foul-language, half-demented lady they had just come across. No kidding XD.

And then i found out something else from Jia that made me question whether the people i call my friends are really my friends.
After all, i realized they were never really there for me, and they never bothered about my feelings, in fact they hurt me repeatedly over and over again.

I promised myself that next year i will sever all ties with them. I will let things sleep, i will endure whatever i have to endure in my final year and start afresh in the next one.

After all, no point holding on when all i get is a shove in the face, eh? And there's always room for others. So i'll be okay.

-"There's always a way to numb myself from your poison."

Overload

OVERLOAD

Its difficult to accept the way you look when you know you're nowhere near any of the ideal ones. Call me fussy and ridiculous but i hate the fact that i resemble a guy no matter how much i try not to.


i have no self-esteem, i'm sorry. I hate myself, hate my body, hate my face. Hate my bloody life at so many damned intervals.

Trouble is, who gives a damn what i say in the first place?
I';ve been invisible to everyone for goodness knows how long how do u notice if i'm in inner turmoil?

I can bleed myself out and nobody will listen still.

seventeen

RIGHT ON.


Thanks alot to all those guys who wished me on Fb and through sms. :)

No thanks to those(you know who you are lol) who forgot. ;)
Hahah, jk la. Exams are indeed a vital reason to forget.

It was a sucky birthday, to be exact. I was super stressed with exam and snapped at everyone all day because i was cranky. Yes, exam always takes its toll on me. T_T

One year to be 17, here i go. :D