DRAINED
What do i do now?
Cry? Sulk? Ponder in regret?
Most people would just shrug and say "Move on".
Easier said than done.
When you want something so bad, you worked your butt of in hope of achieving something better, and it all ends with ashes at the bottom of the grave. I wanted this more than anyone else, i worked as best as i possibly could within all the limitations of transport problems and studies and a useless jackass taking up more than half your training hour.
I'm so sick and tired of always being a fucking disappointment to myself. Although this time its not my fault, you cant help feeling the tug of what could have happened if you'd just tried.
And now its gone to someone else. Someone else who i knew i could've beaten if i went.
Stupid? I agree. im annoyingly stupid to get distracted when exams are just around the corner. But nobody knows how much i wanted this. Nobody but myself.
Guess i'll see you in hell.
What do i do now?
Cry? Sulk? Ponder in regret?
Most people would just shrug and say "Move on".
Easier said than done.
When you want something so bad, you worked your butt of in hope of achieving something better, and it all ends with ashes at the bottom of the grave. I wanted this more than anyone else, i worked as best as i possibly could within all the limitations of transport problems and studies and a useless jackass taking up more than half your training hour.
I'm so sick and tired of always being a fucking disappointment to myself. Although this time its not my fault, you cant help feeling the tug of what could have happened if you'd just tried.
And now its gone to someone else. Someone else who i knew i could've beaten if i went.
Stupid? I agree. im annoyingly stupid to get distracted when exams are just around the corner. But nobody knows how much i wanted this. Nobody but myself.
Guess i'll see you in hell.
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