BLACK ROSE
I'm just wondering.
I'm particularly feeling confused; everything from newly-made Youth friends to God and His will, to my relationships with old friends and impending college. Right now I'm just so buzzed up in my head about so many things that yesterday seemed like small things sticking about at the back of your head.
I can't really explain it; it's just some sort of feeling. And there's the boy thing too, that just persistently refuses to wriggle from my mind no matter how much I try to squeeze it out. But the last thing I need to prioritize right now is trying to get AJ's attention.
Is this normal? To feel like suddenly the people around you are nothing but hypocrites? That they're nice to you at times but suddenly seem like people that might think you're a jerk deep inside? That's really unfair, especially when others have done nothing to deserve that kind of thought; in fact, they've been nothing but nice to me.
I just feel rather... excluded. I feel rather isolated. At the moment.
Don't know whether it makes sense; at times like these I don't even know what to think.
I feel that I'm always alone. That I'm walking alone. Getting about with my life alone.
Does it make any sense whatsoever?
Yeah, I'm no fan of sentimental posts myself, but then I wouldn't like myself either if I didn't have any depressing emotions that surface every once in awhile. What, a robot? Though at times, it's a tempting wish I would want granted, I'll admit.
But even robots break down from all those weary days they're put through.
Robots; out.
I'm just wondering.
I'm particularly feeling confused; everything from newly-made Youth friends to God and His will, to my relationships with old friends and impending college. Right now I'm just so buzzed up in my head about so many things that yesterday seemed like small things sticking about at the back of your head.
I can't really explain it; it's just some sort of feeling. And there's the boy thing too, that just persistently refuses to wriggle from my mind no matter how much I try to squeeze it out. But the last thing I need to prioritize right now is trying to get AJ's attention.
Is this normal? To feel like suddenly the people around you are nothing but hypocrites? That they're nice to you at times but suddenly seem like people that might think you're a jerk deep inside? That's really unfair, especially when others have done nothing to deserve that kind of thought; in fact, they've been nothing but nice to me.
I just feel rather... excluded. I feel rather isolated. At the moment.
Don't know whether it makes sense; at times like these I don't even know what to think.
I feel that I'm always alone. That I'm walking alone. Getting about with my life alone.
Does it make any sense whatsoever?
Yeah, I'm no fan of sentimental posts myself, but then I wouldn't like myself either if I didn't have any depressing emotions that surface every once in awhile. What, a robot? Though at times, it's a tempting wish I would want granted, I'll admit.
But even robots break down from all those weary days they're put through.
Robots; out.
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