I TASTE FREEDOM... AND TENNIS.
MUHAHAHAHA. Well i cant help it if i love tennis cant i? Shia blogs abt his CF activities and abt God. Other ppl blog abt things they like; or of they dont have personal interests they blog abt random stuff. Jia and Ling have been criticizing my continuous blogging on tennis and nadal. Especially Nadal. They seem have something against poor Rafa. As does my mum. She said he was losing because he was wearing those checkered pants and i said who cares as long as he has a nice ass? XD Jia said if i blogged anymore on Nadal she would go nuts. Well, why not? XD
Hahah, since she asked so politely, i will temporarily cease my Nadal posts. Watch out though, the London Finals are coming soon and with my exam behind me i assure all my faithful readers that there will be plenty of tennis ranting. :)
Speaking of blogs, reading Shia's posts make me feel rather guilty. i mean, i read so many ppl's blogs that talk abt God and CF and keeping the faith. I see all the CF members active in many things that praise God and i dont even get involved with them, whatmore i dont attend church anymore. And i dont blog anything on my faith, God or christianity, unlike all my other christian friends, which precisely makes me feel bad when i read others' posts. Reading Shia's blog was the final straw. It makes me wonder whether im being the christian i should be or whether my faith is strong enough, and particularly questioning my relationship with God.
I dont pray every night, and i rarely read the Bible. I guess i dont like reading all those posts because it makes me feel guilty abt nt doing so. But sooner or later im going to have to face it, and i think that time will be now. I think of going back to church but for some reason i cant mingle with the teens my age there although basically i've known them since i was 3years old. Maybe i just suck at socializing, or they're hostile, i dunno. It troubles me to see other ppl like Shia with such strong foundation and i wonder how on earth do i do that?
Maybe i'll ask my mother for answers. I've no doubt she will tell me what i need to know.
Perhaps its just the pressure?
P.S sorry for the lengthy generic confession. It must have bored u to death like i said, sooner or later it would have to come out. And it aint tennis, see? :)
one word : DOUBT.
MUHAHAHAHA. Well i cant help it if i love tennis cant i? Shia blogs abt his CF activities and abt God. Other ppl blog abt things they like; or of they dont have personal interests they blog abt random stuff. Jia and Ling have been criticizing my continuous blogging on tennis and nadal. Especially Nadal. They seem have something against poor Rafa. As does my mum. She said he was losing because he was wearing those checkered pants and i said who cares as long as he has a nice ass? XD Jia said if i blogged anymore on Nadal she would go nuts. Well, why not? XD
Hahah, since she asked so politely, i will temporarily cease my Nadal posts. Watch out though, the London Finals are coming soon and with my exam behind me i assure all my faithful readers that there will be plenty of tennis ranting. :)
Speaking of blogs, reading Shia's posts make me feel rather guilty. i mean, i read so many ppl's blogs that talk abt God and CF and keeping the faith. I see all the CF members active in many things that praise God and i dont even get involved with them, whatmore i dont attend church anymore. And i dont blog anything on my faith, God or christianity, unlike all my other christian friends, which precisely makes me feel bad when i read others' posts. Reading Shia's blog was the final straw. It makes me wonder whether im being the christian i should be or whether my faith is strong enough, and particularly questioning my relationship with God.
I dont pray every night, and i rarely read the Bible. I guess i dont like reading all those posts because it makes me feel guilty abt nt doing so. But sooner or later im going to have to face it, and i think that time will be now. I think of going back to church but for some reason i cant mingle with the teens my age there although basically i've known them since i was 3years old. Maybe i just suck at socializing, or they're hostile, i dunno. It troubles me to see other ppl like Shia with such strong foundation and i wonder how on earth do i do that?
Maybe i'll ask my mother for answers. I've no doubt she will tell me what i need to know.
Perhaps its just the pressure?
P.S sorry for the lengthy generic confession. It must have bored u to death like i said, sooner or later it would have to come out. And it aint tennis, see? :)
one word : DOUBT.
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